But this season, this season brings so much joy. And just like the clouds can't keep back the sun anymore, and spring is literally exploding all around, I too, am overflowing.
Planning a wedding and anticipating marriage is definitely a highlight in life. If you only knew the road we've been down to bring us to this point, you'd understand why tears almost splash over when I just imagine reaching the end of the aisle and taking his hand.
Today, however, is what I am most thankful for. Yesterdays were hard, and my tomorrows-- I look forward to simply not living them alone. But today I see where and how God has brought me, and I am so very thankful I never was truly alone.
During the hard times I resented a little bit when people told me I was "living the dream". (sorry!) It made me feel like I couldn't admit how hard it was to be "living the dream" because "living the dream" should be dreamy. But how do we even know what dreamy is, without also just the grit of real life?
Today-- these words are loaded with meaning and more than I can express right now-- but I write because I'm happy. I write because I'm free. I write because I know His eye is on the sparrow. And I know He watches me.
I think I will step out to the little village shop and buy myself a cold drink and enjoy the warmth of the sun, and just enjoy this day called today and let those feelings of security and peace wash over me.